the silencer

I'm quite free recently. nothing else to do.. well,it's not actually nothing to do,but i'm kinda lazy. lazy to hang out..lazy to talk..lazy to ..... just wanna stay in my world for a moment. For this time,nothing else matters. I don't feel like want to do things,or even eat. no idea why. I faced insomnia too..it started since the day before i sat for business mathmatics,my final exams..until now. 1st it's just until 2am.and now it's getting worst.. from 2am to 4am..then yesterday to 6am..

OMG.. kinda helpless now.. everything just went wrong. why is this happening?

I love you

''I Love You'' they are not just words to me.

They mean a lot of things to everyone.Some people can say oit to anyone. But sometimes, those three little words can scare a people away or bring them closer together. You can 'i love you' because of the friendship you share, or even 'i love you'' for the special moments you share. Just tell some one you love them when you really mean it. because there are idiots in this world that are willing to wait for a life time. I LOVE YOU, they aren't just three little words.

smiling,who's that fool?

It is 3.30am. I m sitting here and doing nothing. Suddenly, you appeared on my mind. I wished you were honest to me last time, and not denying everything.This is not what i hoped for.I got blurred for every decision you made,when yan gave me clue that you're still in love with me.I stunned.you stopped me for chasing you,avoided me,refused to text me back and... why did you choose a hard path? don't be silly if you think that's best for me. Nothing is except,you. you're the best thing ever happened on my.you gave me hope,you change me,you guided me,you care and most importantly you made me feel being loved. I was wondering of something the night after we settled things down,would i ever make the same decision if i have the time machine? i would say yes. I would decide to study form 6. I would choose to have fun with my gang. but i wouldn't choose to leave you. i'm a fool. A fool that gave threw things up. I fool that loves you so much,until it leads to lust. Fool. I smiled every time people call me ''fool li hui'' because i know i'm surely is. I don't mind you hurting me,although it is pain,but guess what,i'm a tough and strong human. I'll still love you like i always do,even if i move on. I'll be by your side whenever you needs me. Love you.

hate you? not a chance

It’s an aweful day here. Things just went wrong all the time. Why is this happening? If i did something wrong, just tell me. I would love to hear it rather than you blocked me on msn and deleted me on facebook. I suppose you had read my posts from both networks, but it wasn’t you whom i meant. It’s a guy, he’s my primary school friend . What makes you think that it is you? I love you so much.. more than everything. Why would it be you the one i hate?

remember november

November

A month to remember

days filled with sorrows, tired eyes and brain

Weeks filled with examination papers

mouth are filled with junk foods

hands are filled with books and notes

lips murmuring and legs crossed

phone are off and the sounds of fan spinning

made my heart beat goes fast

All of sudden, pupils called and requested of shutting down the system

and it ends up on bed..

One wish

If I could have just one wish,

I would wish to wake up everyday

to the sound of your breath on my neck,

the warmth of your lips on my cheek,

the touch of your fingers on my skin,

and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feeling

with anyone other than you.

love,

fei